I'm with you. I understand you. There are so many things I didn't do due to lack of confidence and self=esteem. My biggest critical person was my sister.. she was 8 years older than me and always had some way to put me down. she is killed in a car wreck two years ago.. Now I wish she was here to put me down but that's another story. As for writing... I understand that as well. Not one member of my close family reads my writing. Not my husband or sister or my kids. A couple of cousins support me. I understand you more than you realize.